On turning 40…

I’m not where I wanted to be by now. I wanted to be settled, to have a house for the next 25 years, to already be a full professor, to have an established life that would stretch ahead of me like a smooth, untroubled stream into the distance.

Thank God I don’t.

Thank God I still have much to strive for, that I haven’t yet fulfilled all of my grandiose dreams. Thank God I still have much to learn, even as I’m proud of how far I’ve come.